argh. no, really. ARRRGGGGHHHH.

i’m frustrated.

i’ve been working out for nearly two weeks, almost every day.  it’s more than i’ve really ever worked out, with the possible exception of when i used to walk home from middle school, about a mile and a half, most every day.  but considering i’m doing at least double that most days…yes, i’m working out more than i ever had.

and, yet, i’m GAINING weight.

that’s right.

GAINING.

now, before you’re all “well, are you eating like a crazy person?” the answer is no.

i am trying to eat less.  am i always successful? no.  last week was foodapalooza, so i was happy to just be maintaining. but now? now that i’m back? and have been trying to eat less/smarter?

gaining.  GAINING!

i am so incredibly frustrated.  if i wasn’t doing this for something bigger and better than me, i’d be tempted to stop. but i won’t.

but i guess i’d like to see SOME results. something. it’s not like i don’t have weight to lose.  i do.  so i shouldn’t have any trouble.

sigh.

and if i can’t see results, can i please stop looking for them?

sigh.