Yeah, no real angst here.
Just the kind I apparently make up to fritter the days away, as opposed to, say, writing a dissertation or grading student papers or preparing for class or finishing my laundry.
You know what I mean. Don’t act like you haven’t done it.
So, I am wondering what the line is between showing somebody that you’re interested and being pathetic. I mean, I think I tend to skew on the side of making somebody else do all the work, so my internal monologue went a little something like this:
Me: Maybe I should try to show that I’m interested more. I mean, the chase is good, but at some point, people get tired.
Me2: How could I do that, though? I don’t want to seem…silly.
Me: Hmm. Good question. Valid point. We don’t want that. We’re awesome! We don’t NEED anything!
Me2: Hey…let’s use technology! That’s a good plan!
Me: I like technology SO much, Me2! What a splendid idea!
(This is, of course, dramatic license. I do not actually have two personalities, nor do I have such very logical conversations with myself. Most of mine are far less linear.)
It’s a good plan. I like technology, because I can do things on my time and on my schedule and, in theory, not expect anything in return. It can be like leaving somebody a note on their car or something like that. I think the problem comes when what I think I expected and what I must have actually expected collide in disappointment and feeling stupid. I’m pretty sure, given my worry about being pathetic, that this was one of those situations where I WAS, in fact, expecting something straight from the script of a Nora Ephron romantic comedy. Some kind of reciprocal demonstration.
I didn’t get the script. I didn’t get nothing…but I didn’t get the script.
I guess I’m just really uncomfortable putting myself out there and I can’t decide whether or not I’m doing something wrong.
And I’m pretty sure by even asking this question to the blogosphere, I’m being an idiot. But, here I am, asking it.
So, please delurk. I know you’re there, and you’re reading. I know you’re wise.
And I know most of you are girls.
So, gals, tell me true: what’s the line between showing interest and losing your mystery?
All right. I’m off to do something social…and turn off my phone. 🙂