Archive for December, 2008

Posted in blogging, me, memelicious on December 30, 2008 by drbolte

i came home with stories, but i don’t have the brainpower to make them happen yet. but they’re funny, as are all of my travel stories because when i travel, hilarity follows.  i’m pretty sure that’s true of my ENTIRE life, but…let’s leave that for another day, shall we?

so, instead, i will bore you.  but in boring you, i hope i will inspire you to do it too and then link back so that i can read your answers too.  what ELSE are you going to do? watch ryan seacrest try to be dick clark?


(and i found here.)

1. What did you do in 2008 that you’d never done before?

applied for professor jobs.  went to michigan.  presented at a serious professional conference. wore a size in adulthood that i never have. completed a 5k. uhm…loved exercise? i’m sure there are more, but…i can’t think of any others and those are good.

2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

i hate them. instead, i make the whole year one big fat list of goals.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

my friend andy didn’t give birth, but he contributed to the process.  YES!  on monday!

4. Did anyone close to you die?

not this year, no.

5. What countries did you visit?

if bizarroworld is a country, i visited there frequently.

6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?

a job and the start to a real life.  not that this one sucks at all…

7. What dates from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

well, i can’t really think of any that predate about two months ago, so i’m guessing…very few?

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

professional:50 page dissertation chapter.  that was pretty cool.

personal: kicking my own butt every day at the gym.

9. What was your biggest failure?

not meeting most of my dissertation goals.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

of course. i’m human.  i got wicked sick at halloween.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

good grief.  i have to say clothes.  it’s pretty much my favorite things.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?

i’ve seen a lot of compassion and kindness–from a lot of people near me who didn’t necessarily need to be invested.  to them, i say thank you.  you deal with the crazy quite well, and you’ll never know how much i appreciate it.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?

most election behavior appalled me.  the intolerance horrified me.

14. Where did most of your money go?

paying bills.  and job search/conference expenses. and, for a while there, the USPS.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

the bff coming home.  not much compares to that.

16. What song will always remind you of 2008?

yowsa.  that’s hard.  something by taylor swift, probably.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? happier. SO much happier. although i was pretty happy last year.
b) thinner or fatter? thinner!  HOORAY!
c) richer or poorer?  uhm…probably poorer, but more aware of it and trying to do something about it.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?


19. What do you wish you’d done less of?

procrastinating.  sorry, guys, but blogging. and stupidity.

20. How did you spend Christmas?

with my family…as it should be.

21. Did you fall in love in 2008?

i don’t think so.

22. What was your favorite TV program?

good grief.  uhm.  the closer, actually.  that show brings me joy every single time.

23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

i really try not to hate people.  i really do.

24. What was the best book you read?

the secret life of bees.

25. What was your greatest musical discovery?

ben harper, thanks to lindzml.  but i’ll admit to being fairly enraptured by britney’s circus.

26. What did you want and get?

results and i got them from hard work.

patience and i got it through prayer.

courage and i got it through following the Spirit.

27. What did you want and not get?

job interviews.

28. What was your favorite film of this year?

too hard!

29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

i dressed up and went to dinner with my roommates.  i was old enough to know better than to publicize that.

30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

i’m not sure there is anything.  i feel fairly certain that things went exactly as they were meant to.

31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?

sale rack comfortable chic.

32. What kept you sane?

my mom.  the bff.  prayer. chipping away, slowly, at longterm goals and seeing how that, even if it’s small progress, works wonders. i need to get back to that mentality.

33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

fancy? wow.  i don’t really think i have one.

34. What political issue stirred you the most?

the backlash over proposition 8 in CA.

35. Who did you miss?

the bff, of course.  my family–six months without them was ROUGH.

36. Who was the best new person you met?

too hard!

37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008.

i can do most anything that i want to do, if i REALLY want to do it.

38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.

from sway by the perishers:

It was you who picked the pieces up
When I was a broken soul
And then glued me back together
Returned to me what others stole.

your turn, y’all…

westward bound.

Posted in Uncategorized on December 26, 2008 by drbolte

going to san francisco without any interviews should be a lot more depressing than it actually is. instead, i’m going with no pressure, just a need to attend sessions, make the most of it, and hopefully network and meet some people that might be important later in the job search.

i really do suppose that i should be upset about it, but instead i genuinely think the Lord is in charge. i think that’s pretty clear from the way that things have gone down in the past few weeks.

so i’m going for a few days–i’ll bring back stories, hopefully, and pictures, maybe, and a better sense of how these crazy huge conferences work. i’ll be back online when i’m back home.

until then, keep yourself safe, love the ones around you, and enjoy the last few days of 2008.

i’ll say hi to the golden gate for you.

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Posted in all i want for christmas is..., faith is action, i love my life, magic, perfect brightness of hope, superheckyes, the glass is half FULL, The Single Life, you have to be a chick to understand on December 25, 2008 by drbolte

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for all the ladies out there.

Posted in Uncategorized on December 24, 2008 by drbolte

listen. if you’re not a girl, fair warning. girl talk ahead. and not the like exciting gossipy girl talk. like talk about girl-related things. so you may want to move on.


okay. ladies. i went shopping this past week and i am apparently a 35C+. meaning that in bra sizes i am completely inbetween.


and i know, before you tell me, that there are those “nearly whatever cup size you are” sizes. but they don’t MAKE those in C/D.

because, apparently, if you have the blessing of being between “perfect playboy/most frequently requested enhancement size” and “holy crap perhaps i should investigate a career in stripping” you should just count your lucky stars and be done with it.


so…suggestions? i can fit into a 34 if i don’t want to, you know, breathe real deep, but the 36 fits fine, especially on the last clasp. but…i don’t know what to do. i mean, i don’t want to look like i’m smashing the girls down in order to get into a C, but the Ds usually look…not properly filled out.


i like being a girl most days, but sometimes shopping days make me CRAZY.

so…help a sister out, will you? should i try victoria’s secret? are they going to help me or make me want to cry and run out of there? anywhere else?

seriously. suggestions and advice needed and hereby solicited.

and i hereby end tmi girl talk.

oh hai.

Posted in Uncategorized on December 23, 2008 by drbolte

i ran for four minutes straight.

yeah. shut up marathoners. that’s a big frickin’ deal for me, who couldn’t really manage two minutes without planning my imminent funeral.

and i did it twice.

through danity kane’s “damaged” and good charlotte’s “i don’t wanna be in love”–with some chris brown “forever” walking recovery time inbetween.

i win.

cxx: mile markers.

Posted in c, disney princesses got nothin' on me, magic, mirror mirror on the wall, shopping, superheckyes, the glass is half FULL, you have to be a chick to understand on December 22, 2008 by drbolte

i successfully shopped the sale rack in the juniors department today.

when your grandest dream is to buy any kind of clothing in the regular sized department as a teenager, so that you can go shopping with your friends and not be limited to exclusively shoes and accessories, the juniors department is like mecca. or the holy grail.  insert the appropriate religious metaphor of your choice.

but even when you’ve gotten down to a size where you really fit into most anything in the regular section, the juniors section remains unattainable.

because, in case you didn’t know, everything that’s a “junior” size is a) smaller than standard sizes and 2) cut for people with a standard hourglass figure (or a girl with no hips, butt, or any real body parts at all)

definitely not someone with hips and a butt for ages.

so, i’ve stayed away.  today it began with a coat that i thought was really adorable.  there was a size there that i thought might fit.  and i hadn’t tried for a while and ‘what the heck do i have to lose?’ went through my head.  so i pulled the coat over my sweater and zipped it up.

and it fit.  not just fit, but looked ADORABLE.  i wasn’t pouring myself into it.  it just fit, all cute and sassy and totally me.  so i thought…well…if that size fits in that, maybe other things will?

and from there it was just one tumbling snowball rolling downhill, sweeping my money off and bringing a whole lot of awesome.

today, i did what i’ve never done.  today, i am apparently standard hourglass figure.  today, i found the holy grail.

for 70% off.

i’m really not sure it gets much better than that.

day 5 shred update: took sunday off, as i will from now on.  i can’t make myself workout on sunday when it has been, for so long, my day of rest.  so i doubled up to make up for it.  level one this morning and level two tonight.  other than feeling like i REALLY need to work on my plank position and my oblique twists, i really, really liked it. level two was harder, yeah, but almost more fun.  i’ll probably vary it up. and i don’t even feel particularly like death.  we’ll see what i feel like tomorrow…but i’m still at it.

word of the day.

Posted in all i want for christmas is..., disney princesses got nothin' on me, faith is action, me, perfect brightness of hope, superheckyes, the glass is half FULL, The Single Life, wish i may wish i might on December 22, 2008 by drbolte

according to our generation’s answer to the encyclopedia britannica (did i even spell that right?):


sass, courage, spunk, determination, attitude

ex: “That girl’s got moxie.”

that girl, of which they speak?

that’s me.

issues up for discussion.

Posted in Uncategorized on December 21, 2008 by drbolte

i have hit a new level of desperation, either born of boredom or of a strange need to constantly tripletask, because i just keep hitting friends on my facebook page, desperately hoping that something, anything, will happen.

i have yet to finish my christmas shopping. i am supposed to make something for my mom that i haven’t even figured out how to do yet, let alone started. i need to make a belt for a dress before tuesday at 6 p.m. and our family has decided to do a german christmas meal, so i have to figure out how to make apple streudel sometime between now and then. oh, and potato pancakes. and other side dishes.

i go to san francisco in less than a week. no interviews, but that seems to be going around. i’ve been charged with bringing back multiple loaves of sourdough bread, so i have to figure out how to do that without calling attention to myself and tripping some kind of north carolina imported baked goods alarm.

i have done nothing…i repeat…NOTHING on my chapter. THAT’S a problem.

it will be 39 degrees here tomorrow and i do not own a coat that fits me. i do not have access to a coat that fits me. living in florida, this normally does not pose a huge problem because i have lightweight jackets that often do the job. but 39 degrees? brrr.

the good news is that i took a day off of the shred, and i think it was a good thing. i’ll double up tomorrow, i guess. don’t care right now.

i can’t believe that it’s almost christmas. it’s almost 2009. what the heck.


day four.

Posted in Uncategorized on December 20, 2008 by drbolte

once i realized that my concerted efforts weren’t as mindnumbingly difficult as they once were, that i actually could float off of the floor in the last cardio circuit like jillian tells us to, and that pushups may actually happen for me someday since it was a little easier this time to even imagine the idea of going lower than more than an inch*, i began to fear level 2.

i imagine that’s progress.

*yeah, imagine my humbling when the bff tells me last night that he can do 50 pushups. super.

beware the 540 turn lane.

Posted in Uncategorized on December 19, 2008 by drbolte

as i was driving home tonight, sitting in the left turn lane to get on the highway, listening to ne-yo, i began to realize that i may be leaving florida in what amounts to not that very long at all.

something in me lurched. i felt it. i was imagining trying to say goodbye to people, trying to encapsulate memories into a scrapbook, or the things that i would want to do before i left, and something splintered in me.

when i try to imagine it, i can’t. it hurts too much.

and i don’t know what to do with that.